Ex's

So, my ex came and talked to me today.
But I realized that as much as I was clinging to the thought that we could be friends after we broke up.
I realized that this is not what I wanted.

I realized that I was not ready to let go because it was something that I wanted and thought that I needed badly.
I have found out that I was starting to sacrifice myself a bit to stay with him.
Then I saw the true side of him.

You know..the one that you see a few months later. I realized that this is not someone that I wanted nor something that I really desired.
But I think I was seeing in him parts of myself that I needed to see in myself. I think he may be the first ex I ever learned something from. I was at that point to open up after so many years of being closed to realize my potential and the love that I have for myself as well as others. I brought to my life things that I needed to see for myself.
I am glad that I have seen them and am willing to learn from them.

I learned that we can not place blame on other for our own choices. ( I knew that before but really understood it this time)
I learned that our past can have some influence on our present and our future, but we make the decision to either allow it to be negative or positive.
I learned that I love myself and I love my family and friends more than I did before. And lastly, I learned that I have become a very loving, kind and beautiful person and I need to treat myself with that love and respect.
I have learned more about myself in the past three months than I have in the past 2+ years that I have been here. Everything is a learning experience and it can be either positive or negative..it is all in how you want to perceive it. I like this point of view..

I know that people use this forum for things regarding many things.
I hope that my thoughts do not offend or raise questions..
if they do in good ways then YAY!
If I find a yummy recipe I will share but I also would like to share my thoughts so you can all know me as a person as well.
I like to keep things open and share experience's in hope that there is insite that can be shared as well as insite that can be learned.

Be well everyone..